"Whatda...!" i stopped after nearly colliding with a fishball stall. "Doggammit!" i muttered to myself and "Ay sorry!" to the fishball vendor. I quickly turned left, stepped forward, stopped to check if i was going to the right direction. "Vito Cruz, EDSA, Shaw, Vito Cruz, EDSA, Shaw..." i kept repeating, until i was infront of the station counter where i bought my ticket.
Morrie was totally useless during the entire trip. Instead i continued to mull over the thoughts i previously had, the one that had caused me a near accident with a fishball stand. Actually, i've been wrestling for days with the idea to wheter continue the Cold War between me and my better half, and if not, what's the best way to end it?
"Shaw station..." the train operator jerked me right out of my thoughts. My stop. Finally! Quickly, i stepped out of the train and joined the mass of people bent on being the first one to step on the escalator. Armed with my body-twisting and balancing skills, i charged-on to my destination.
At Starbucks, my friend Liezel has not arrived yet. My cellphone informed me that she was on her way and will be there in about 30 minutes. Okay, that means 45 minutes max, "looks like Morrie will be of use after all, got to order if i intend to stay inside the shop" i told myself. After getting my Capuccino and chocolate cake, i found a seat near the windows right across a bunch of coeds who looked like they were doing their homework.
I started reading Morrie while eating forkfulls of chocolate cake and drinking my capuccino. I was flipping through the chapters to see how long each of them were when my eyes settled on a line that read "Love is the only rational act.", and I felt something that only 2 shots of Espresso can do! A sudden realization that there, written on the pages was the answer to my problem.
The only rational answer to my problem is to love and keep on loving. This was an AHA! moment, a moment, as explained by Oprah, when an idea, or something moved you and inspired you to do something good for yourself and for others. Do the only rational act, keep loving, stop Cold war. Fine. But how?
I turned again to Morrie, hoping that again, its pages will reveal another answer.
A few pages after, another line, another thought from Morrie struck me. This time i wasn't able to stop myself from muttering the words, "Oh-my-gosh!". Self-conciously i looked up to see if the coeds heard me, nope, still busy with their homework. But i felt like a bucket of water was poured right on my head.
Morrie was totally useless during the entire trip. Instead i continued to mull over the thoughts i previously had, the one that had caused me a near accident with a fishball stand. Actually, i've been wrestling for days with the idea to wheter continue the Cold War between me and my better half, and if not, what's the best way to end it?
"Shaw station..." the train operator jerked me right out of my thoughts. My stop. Finally! Quickly, i stepped out of the train and joined the mass of people bent on being the first one to step on the escalator. Armed with my body-twisting and balancing skills, i charged-on to my destination.
At Starbucks, my friend Liezel has not arrived yet. My cellphone informed me that she was on her way and will be there in about 30 minutes. Okay, that means 45 minutes max, "looks like Morrie will be of use after all, got to order if i intend to stay inside the shop" i told myself. After getting my Capuccino and chocolate cake, i found a seat near the windows right across a bunch of coeds who looked like they were doing their homework.
I started reading Morrie while eating forkfulls of chocolate cake and drinking my capuccino. I was flipping through the chapters to see how long each of them were when my eyes settled on a line that read "Love is the only rational act.", and I felt something that only 2 shots of Espresso can do! A sudden realization that there, written on the pages was the answer to my problem.
The only rational answer to my problem is to love and keep on loving. This was an AHA! moment, a moment, as explained by Oprah, when an idea, or something moved you and inspired you to do something good for yourself and for others. Do the only rational act, keep loving, stop Cold war. Fine. But how?
I turned again to Morrie, hoping that again, its pages will reveal another answer.
A few pages after, another line, another thought from Morrie struck me. This time i wasn't able to stop myself from muttering the words, "Oh-my-gosh!". Self-conciously i looked up to see if the coeds heard me, nope, still busy with their homework. But i felt like a bucket of water was poured right on my head.
"Sometimes you cannot believe what you see,
you have to believe what you feel.
And if you ever have other people to trust you,
you must feel you can trust them too-
even when you are in the dark.
Even when you're falling." I was in the dark. In terms of my relationship with my husband, i didn't know if we've come to the point that it's the best it could ever be. I felt that i cannot trust him anymore to make our life and our relationship better. I was falling - allowing myself to fall out of love.
This was the point when i stopped reading and just allowed my new thoughts to swirl inside my head. Then i realized that people who are looking at me must think that the caffeine is starting to kick-in, 'cause i was speed-eating the slice cake infront of me. As i put down my fork, i promised myself to just close my eyes this time and open my heart. If i cannot believe what i see, i should turn to what i can still feel. I've got to trust.
This was the point when i stopped reading and just allowed my new thoughts to swirl inside my head. Then i realized that people who are looking at me must think that the caffeine is starting to kick-in, 'cause i was speed-eating the slice cake infront of me. As i put down my fork, i promised myself to just close my eyes this time and open my heart. If i cannot believe what i see, i should turn to what i can still feel. I've got to trust.
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