Sink or Swim?

January 8, 2007 , Monday

I was diagnosed as Diabetic...my blood sugar levels was so high in the test results that even my endocrinologist was surprised. She found it pretty funny, she was actually laughing in disbelief. I was ready to faint. Devastated.

What was there left for me to do? I am already diabetic, same with my father. I already saw my future, knew what was coming. Should I Sink or Swim?

Here is my dad, 25 years diabetic, with kidney failure, during one of his dialysis treatment.

He's adjusted quite well in his situation. 25 years ago he chose to swim and I know that it has been a long and trying effort. There was a brief moment when he wanted to sink, give up, he told me that he wanted to die right after we left the hospital last October. I guess we are allowed that once in a while, us being human.

He is my new hero, my measuring stick. He lived with diabetes all these years, so will I. He had kidney failure as a complication, i won't.

Two weeks after my diagnosis, and with normal blood sugar level, thanks to the meds that i've been taking and a more sensible diet, I've come to accept and embrace what is.

So, diet, exercise and meds. I guess that's not so bad is it?